Hell from the age of ten

Born into a working class family, squalled accommodation, childhood was very unhappy, only affection from Dad was the wrong type, coping with his death at 12, blaming myself because I wished him dead, discovering drink and drugs made life bearable, dating wrong men, leading to domestic violence, ill health , coping with your son having Aspergers, and him constantly trying to kill himself, meeting a good man, but does it last, bit of a twist in the tale.